In the love I have for being on my computer and having my friends I am feeling a bit over loaded and need some time to reorganize my life, my kids, my job, my house, my computer, my future.
I am going to check out for a bit for restructuring and hope to come back to you feeling refreshed and renewed. I may not return and journal in my own private manner, since most of this I do to print and place in a book for my children so as they reflect on me and our time together they can say hey she was crazy and she knew it or she yelled but she had reasons that I can understand now, or she was always on that computer but now I know what she was doing.
So have beautiful days and sleepfull nights. May God continue to watch over you and bless you and know that from time to time I will sneak in for a peek at what you are doing, you can always drop me an email as well.
Love hope and peace
me
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
obsession #50
I am not really counting, but Devin has certains things he gets obsessed over, recently it had been his wallet, right now its his portable dvd player, he has to touch buttons and change out dvd's which I made copies so he could mess them up and I would not have a serious BF on him.
He is such a goof!
a beautiful sunset
our day ended with a touch or beauty from God,
on a dark and ugly day , a day full of feeling sad and confussed, God can still show the beautiful things in this world that make us breath some peace
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Uncle Joe
I have these cousins, but we were raised calling them Aunts and Uncles since my mom was an only child and not close to her step siblings. My grandma and her brother Richard bought attached cabins (a duplex) with the stone fronts like you would see all over the Ozarks, and we spent our summer vacations there. As the years past they built on to the place and our families filled it with laughter and tears, card games and water balloon fights. Fireworks on fourth of July and sunburns like I have not had since. The uncles left at the crack of dawn to fish, coming back in time for breakfast, and the grandpas were grilling for dinner by 4p and the gang would be playing cards by 7p. The cousins we would be playing cards for pretzels or running between the two cabins.
Memories of the time the tornado came through and we all hid in the bathrooms and much time spent fishing of the dock walkway catching sunfish with cheese and hotdogs.
That old place was sold in 1992, everyone so busy getting their lives going, now we wish we had that place again for our kids to spend summers at!
Our Uncle Joe and Aunt Laura have one son, Joseph .
Aunt Linda and Uncle Jim have two children Jimmy and Sara, Uncle Russell did not have children and then my mom has us four kids.
There is nothing like a wonderful childhood memory that consists of annual summer vacations, weekend get aways that seemed to last forever.
We would see family for Thanksgiving and Christmas in January. Always that feeling of THERE IS NOTHING LIKE FAMILY TO FILL THE HEART!
In my youth uncle Joe found out he had kidney failure and after many years of battle he was able to overcome with a kidney transplant, being a child then I don't remember all those details just that sometimes he looked jaundice and other times really thin.
But he improved and we saw him for weddings and graduation's, the occasional funeral as the elders of this family had moved on to walk with God.
Two years ago Aunt Linda lost Uncle Jim to a brain tumor and it so saddened all of us. We knew he was at peace, you could feel it from his family. Then to see all those that loved him at his memorial service, it was amazingly wonderful.
Now with my step dad so very ill we have had our hearts heavy. The other day I got an email that my great Aunt June (Laura, Linda and Russell's mom) was taken to the hospital but was back home and ok. They were waiting for tests to tell them why she was weak and having heart beat issues. Then this evening, Brad walked in the bedroom and said, with cell phone in hand, "Sara called" in this 2 second pause I am thinking Aunt June died OMG, but instead he states "Uncle Joe died" I sat straight up,
WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Uncle Joe passed this evening, they believe he fell off the roof! Aunt Laura had not seen him in the house in some time and went out to look for him and found him in the yard. The ambulance came and they were unsuccessful in giving him life. God had already taken him home.
I am so sad to hear this news and at the same time I know he is with God I hope he knows he is with God, and I am knowing that these two sisters are coming together and Linda will know how to help Laura through this horrific event and they together can lean on one another.
I am so sad
I wish there was something I could do.
I will wait to hear the news of what is next to come, Again I am quiting smoking, I pick the best times!!!!!! But who cares right, A wife lost her husband, a son lost his father, future grandchildren will never know there Grandpa. But God wins one more of his sons, welcoming him home with open arms.
I am so sad!
so these memories are filling my head and I am smiling, and sad, happy, and sad
mourning a loss in our family and know that it will not be the last, and hoping it is not the first of many to come close together.
such an awful thought and feeling, I was just thinking today that we are all getting older and soon we will be the oldest in our families, that our older generation is becoming us, scary huh!!!
so as Brad said, live today as if it were your last, don't be angry. You never know what God has planned for any of us, that fast and we can be gone! What memory do you leave behind?
Memories of the time the tornado came through and we all hid in the bathrooms and much time spent fishing of the dock walkway catching sunfish with cheese and hotdogs.
That old place was sold in 1992, everyone so busy getting their lives going, now we wish we had that place again for our kids to spend summers at!
Our Uncle Joe and Aunt Laura have one son, Joseph .
Aunt Linda and Uncle Jim have two children Jimmy and Sara, Uncle Russell did not have children and then my mom has us four kids.
There is nothing like a wonderful childhood memory that consists of annual summer vacations, weekend get aways that seemed to last forever.
We would see family for Thanksgiving and Christmas in January. Always that feeling of THERE IS NOTHING LIKE FAMILY TO FILL THE HEART!
In my youth uncle Joe found out he had kidney failure and after many years of battle he was able to overcome with a kidney transplant, being a child then I don't remember all those details just that sometimes he looked jaundice and other times really thin.
But he improved and we saw him for weddings and graduation's, the occasional funeral as the elders of this family had moved on to walk with God.
Two years ago Aunt Linda lost Uncle Jim to a brain tumor and it so saddened all of us. We knew he was at peace, you could feel it from his family. Then to see all those that loved him at his memorial service, it was amazingly wonderful.
Now with my step dad so very ill we have had our hearts heavy. The other day I got an email that my great Aunt June (Laura, Linda and Russell's mom) was taken to the hospital but was back home and ok. They were waiting for tests to tell them why she was weak and having heart beat issues. Then this evening, Brad walked in the bedroom and said, with cell phone in hand, "Sara called" in this 2 second pause I am thinking Aunt June died OMG, but instead he states "Uncle Joe died" I sat straight up,
WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Uncle Joe passed this evening, they believe he fell off the roof! Aunt Laura had not seen him in the house in some time and went out to look for him and found him in the yard. The ambulance came and they were unsuccessful in giving him life. God had already taken him home.
I am so sad to hear this news and at the same time I know he is with God I hope he knows he is with God, and I am knowing that these two sisters are coming together and Linda will know how to help Laura through this horrific event and they together can lean on one another.
I am so sad
I wish there was something I could do.
I will wait to hear the news of what is next to come, Again I am quiting smoking, I pick the best times!!!!!! But who cares right, A wife lost her husband, a son lost his father, future grandchildren will never know there Grandpa. But God wins one more of his sons, welcoming him home with open arms.
I am so sad!
so these memories are filling my head and I am smiling, and sad, happy, and sad
mourning a loss in our family and know that it will not be the last, and hoping it is not the first of many to come close together.
such an awful thought and feeling, I was just thinking today that we are all getting older and soon we will be the oldest in our families, that our older generation is becoming us, scary huh!!!
so as Brad said, live today as if it were your last, don't be angry. You never know what God has planned for any of us, that fast and we can be gone! What memory do you leave behind?
Big Boy
Devin has been just amazing me, he is wearing underwear this week, no accidents.
He has pull ups too that he wears and likes, they have the cars character on them. Yesterday he woke and wanted to go potty. While he was doing that Brenden commented and Devin saw on his underwear a poo mark with this he refused to wear them again and said " I wear cars". So funny.
He has also been sleeping in his big boy bed, two naps and two nights, WOW!!!!
It amazes me so because he is sooooooooooo different from Brenden who slept in our bed and snuggled for ever. Even to this day Brenden will snuggle on up with us,all 100 lbs of him and Devin gives a hug a kiss and he is gone.... (ok so he says high five, up high and knuckles, then he is off)
How 2 kids could be so different, but both just as precious as they come.
Today we had the dr, well I did, another monitor to wear for 24 hours, Devin was making his mark as he sat up in a chair got out a snack and ate them then went to go potty, washed his hands sat back down and opened up a magazine, they all thought he was much older, we get that alot. He loves to say goodbye, to everyone and EVERYTHING
we drive down the street, goodbye trees, bye house, bye car, bye whatever he sees. He is such a crack up, when at the park, say lets go Devin he says ok, "BYE PARK!"
this is my new favorite act of his
He got to go see his cousins today after the dr appointment , Gavin, Peyton, and Addison are all doing well. We stopped at the meat market where he got out his shopping cart and loaded up items for the next two nights dinner, okay so got a piece of cherry pie to share after lunch too. We like pie!!!!! Then we picked up the dogs from the groomers ( its at a puppy farm, not sure how long I can keep going there, so sad all those pups in the cages, and the smell, well it is not delightful thats for sure.
so I am ready for lunch and a nap, the last week or so is finally catching up to me and I am feeling sleepy, hope all is well......
He has pull ups too that he wears and likes, they have the cars character on them. Yesterday he woke and wanted to go potty. While he was doing that Brenden commented and Devin saw on his underwear a poo mark with this he refused to wear them again and said " I wear cars". So funny.
He has also been sleeping in his big boy bed, two naps and two nights, WOW!!!!
It amazes me so because he is sooooooooooo different from Brenden who slept in our bed and snuggled for ever. Even to this day Brenden will snuggle on up with us,all 100 lbs of him and Devin gives a hug a kiss and he is gone.... (ok so he says high five, up high and knuckles, then he is off)
How 2 kids could be so different, but both just as precious as they come.
Today we had the dr, well I did, another monitor to wear for 24 hours, Devin was making his mark as he sat up in a chair got out a snack and ate them then went to go potty, washed his hands sat back down and opened up a magazine, they all thought he was much older, we get that alot. He loves to say goodbye, to everyone and EVERYTHING
we drive down the street, goodbye trees, bye house, bye car, bye whatever he sees. He is such a crack up, when at the park, say lets go Devin he says ok, "BYE PARK!"
this is my new favorite act of his
He got to go see his cousins today after the dr appointment , Gavin, Peyton, and Addison are all doing well. We stopped at the meat market where he got out his shopping cart and loaded up items for the next two nights dinner, okay so got a piece of cherry pie to share after lunch too. We like pie!!!!! Then we picked up the dogs from the groomers ( its at a puppy farm, not sure how long I can keep going there, so sad all those pups in the cages, and the smell, well it is not delightful thats for sure.
so I am ready for lunch and a nap, the last week or so is finally catching up to me and I am feeling sleepy, hope all is well......
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
Dont blame your momma for everything!
my Life
the other list
Who's stopping in
