OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have sooooooooooo much to vent girlfriends, I dont know where to start, i will just say a few things and then maybe vent later, there is just too much to say right now and I may get too mean in what I say so it is just best to keep it simple, whatever that means. I have been talking about this which is sooooooooooooooo wrong and I should stop but its as if I cant NOT help myself and I think if I say it one more time it could get better, yea right! Who the fuck am I kidding.

besides the feeling of being totally overwhelmed these last few weeks I have taken on one HUGE situation, not alone mind you but all the same I dont think I need it by any means but I sure would hope that someone would help me if I were in , No I would not allow this to happen to me, its not who I am but still I would pray that someone would come to sort me out if I was in a bad way.

I have someone in my life that has created debt, dirt, and addiction to swallow them whole.

I have been working along with others to help them dig out, organize, trash, donate, sort, and box their life, their home, their things.

I am not perfect, we ALL know this. I will be the first to build a soap box to stand on and shout my faults and how I hope to some day over come them all. I am on one now that I am not shouting about, its more of a whisper since the person I am helping is taking over.

but I feel I have been worse due to the added issues.

The person though has to get help, find help, want help and accept help. Thus far they are letting Brad and I take over their financial situation and once we started digging, HOLY CRAPOLA. They have a gambling addiction that is worse than I had ever wanted to believe it to be, this is beyond me since I hate to be without money, I hate to freely spend. Now trust me if I won money I would be buying things but I would also be hording it just as easily.

I buy something and many times will return the item if I feel it is not truly needed.

This person and their ways are so different from mine and how can that be when in my youth they were so influential in many of the things I try to change about myself today. Maybe it is that I have overcome some of who they are and am still working on the mental part that they placed or that I have learned from them.

None of this is my PROBLEM, I know this. I did not do this to them, no one did. They have done it to themselves but they need to grow up and get their head out of their freakin ass and OMG!!!!!!

So we are moving them out of their house before they lose it, clean up the crap, donate the worthy, pack and store the important, fast move what is immediately needed and someone how not burn the rest................................................
well my computer shut down and I lost the rest of what I wrote, maybe I was saying and going on too long, so I will take the hint and let it rest and move on, try to see what I can do for myself and then what I can for others to make my spot in life a happy place to be, I am grateful and blessed in my home and that my friends, "MY HOME" is alllllll that matters.