Leaky Roof

so much rain this week it has begun to find its way in to our home, our beautiful 92 year old home is being invaded from above and below. We had hard blowing rain a week ago and a leak began in our office, quick grab a towel, dripping is landing quietly now. This still left a bummer feeling in our thoughts. Today more rain came and kept coming and soon we noticed where we took part of our ceiling out for a project there now is a drip drip drip...so slight but still a drip is a drip and it has invaded our home. Then to the basement to check laundry and water is creeping its way across the floor, two areas are beginning to have a race to see who can find the drain pump first.
I began to have this thought as I deal with other areas of my life, not just what is happening to my home with this water seeping in, but I...Being the deep thinking Christian I am began to think about the parallel worlds of physical and spiritiual.....I thought about the stresses and strains of daily life and situations that are on a roll and out of our control. They seep in to different areas of our lives and we can grab a paper towel, a cloth towel, a mop or even a bucket for the big drips. But still they are there so what to do about it. Well trace it along the pipeline, how far back does it go, where does it start, what other factors are invovled, can you cover it up, patch it up, replace a part or do you need to call in for professinal help or is the drip just due to the changing weather outside and once it passes the drip will dry up and all will be well again, yet the thought of that similar situation arising again and the issue returns. Sadly life situations will repeat unless they are dealt with and if done so properly and promptly they can find a way to patch, heal and never leak again. But if you are there with a leak that you find comes from two areas, both need to be fixed. You fix your end but the other part has done nothing to fix their end, well then the leak, the drip will continue to plop and splatter on all that surrounds it.
So what do you do? I am waiting on that answer as I deal with my drips and streams in life, that are reaccuring, I fix my end and the other end still drips and leaks and then uses a squigy to shovel the water towards my dry areas making me start all over again as I mop up the messes they create. I pray on this time and again awaiting for the answer in what to do, how can I help when I feel that even the thought of me brings a down pour of water. Its a helpless feeling, even harder when you are aware that some are suffering as they wade in the water around this continuous drip....
I pray that if you find your self in a trouble spot of life, and surrounded by water, don't flail around like you cant swim, put your feet down stand up and try walking to drier land, get some floaties, ask for a lifeguard to help you out, then go take swimming lessons or patch up your leaks. If Evil is seeping in around you, fight back, don't let it flood your life and drown you where you stand. Pray God guides you, shows favor on your life and bring you peace to all the storms you must weather.

Loss

Last year my phone rang and it was a call that my cousin Eric was in the hospital actually he was being sent to a hospital in Nashville, His kidneys were shutting down, It didnt look good for him. I was debating on making the trip to Nashville to see him, other family members were on their way, Uncle David and Lil David I knew for sure where headed to see Eric, just in case, I hated to hear those words, but he is our cousin our family and those that could get there were headed to show him their love in person, the rest of us stayed, we prayed, we hoped, we begged God to give him a nother try at life a life that he had chosen to take a tough bumpy road in a life he had so much talent and gifts in. Eric was a rebellious soul against himself....seems us Andrews know how to do that. With in days we heard he was improving but it would be a long road, at this time I dont recall how much time had passed but it was mearly months when the phone call came in again, A family relay phone to phone another member, this time as I thought it was going to be about Eric instead it was that Lil David had passed, His heart. .....I was crushed, David had some heart issues that he was living with, he had a pacemaker and was living his life to the fullest as he did best, and now at such a young age he was gone. Eric was still in recovery, I spoke with him for a bit one day on the phone and he was hoping to make the trip up for David funeral, they were close cousins, living together for a period of time even. Eric left the nursing care program to make the long haul to say goodbye to his loved cousin. Its been a long year, missing a family member but going on about life with its ups, its downs and its all around messes, blessings....just living and learning, trying our best to learn the lessons we are to learn while we are here, My own health stillin recovery and new life taking shape. The weekend came and Saturday hit with a blast of cold, a bike ride to the St Patricks parade, friends, good times...I checked my phone to see a message...Eric is in a coma, not doing well, airflight to Nashville....OMG NO.......Eric was gone from his body and machines took over where his soul had left. The family that was close to him had to make a hard decision to let his body go and allow Eric to rest in peace, to go to the heavens to be with our cousin Lil Dave, our amazing unconditional loving Grandpa and Grandma Andrews as well as the others in our families that have gone before us. Oh the party that is going on up there in Gods house....Good luck God, they come with twinkles in their eyes, love in their hearts and mischief in the seat of their pants. But they knew what is above us all, what is more powerful than us, I pray they made it, that they are all there waiting for me when I get to go back home, I cant wait to see them all again, to hug and love the way us Andrews do, and adoration for family no matter what the distance or time has taken from each of us. I miss you cousins of mine and I cant wait to see you again, Peace Love Joy

Eric

Lil David

2013....since this could be the only post I write here this year, LOL

Its yet again been some time since I have posted anything I use to be made fun of for posting my life, but it was truly a way to share the love of life, my life I use to have, the marriage I loved, my beautiful children, then it was all taken away from me in one HUGE swoop it seemed, Life can change in a heart beat, mine well the blame lay on me and thats ok, Ill take it, Im strong enough I have proven that to myself over the last 3 years, I cant obviously take A LOT......I wish one day others will be strong enough to take their own faults back and give my shoulders a rest. We make mistakes we let them spiral out of control, relationships that have one or two things missing one day can have many things missing, the longer you go about your days and let those missing things build, they become like pipes with calcium build up on them, and a plumber standing there making matters worse. I fought I worked harder I carried heavy loads until I couldnt do it any longer, sadly what I chose to help me ended up destroying my presonality and ability to care about carrying anything any longer. You let others take over and control you and you run in circles forgetting who you are and what your purpose had ever been. I can leave a list of people that contributed to that tornado but why bother, no one cares anymore, Sad thing is, I do, tremendously. My life is forever changed, many are hurting thanks to my part, not just their own part and I cant fix it for them, I can hardly fix it for myself. I have life on track with GOD first and for most, that was a must. I am in HIS will now and that is an amazing feeling. I know when I feel best and in the right place, now if they other parts of life would just find their way in to healing, this life could actually be incredibly amazing.....so Chapter 2, Part 2, Take 2.....whatever it is, I got on my mark I was ready and Im gone........the past is written here, feel free to read it all, I loved it, I cherished it and I lost it, within the blink of an eye. Sadness followed, now blessings fill the spaces that were battered and bruised.
So whats next, well thats up to God, I listen as He guides. No one can take the place of  certain someones in my past and present, they are there forever. I shall forever cherish my times, my memories and the gifts I have been given in this journey...WOW what a journey, I wish many could understand my thoughts and feelings, to live in my shoes for one moment in time. There are some who think they know me, my thoughts, my walk, my hurts, my motives, but kids.....You have NOOOOOOOOO idea what goes on in this head of mine or what I have walked through in My life with MY kids, my past or present is taken, Get your own and make it amazing, thats what Im doing as best as I can. Love peace joy, let no other steal it from you EVER.

a new life

so many things have been going on in my life and its just truly amazing how life can twist and turn and when you think you know where you are headed you wake up and wipe the sleep from your eyes and realize that its moving in a direction that is benefiting others and you have forgotten what it is that you wanted in the first place. I recall so many times I have wanted things through out the years, dreams hopes wishes and after many years I was free to follow those wishes. Well once I was able to rid myself of the things that were clouding my journey and what was my intended path. Reality is that our path is full of clouds and rain as well as sunshine and rainbows, what is important is that we fully walk the path that is set before us and understand what it is we are going through and learn from the walk we take. As I set one foot in front of the other and began walking I met so many new people and some I thought I were there for a reason but I would not complete my journey with them by my side, but that I need to keep walking and learning and growing to be the person God intends me to be.My journey is long and some days exhausting but I find strength in all that I go through and keep my faith even on the days I think I am going to be stuck face down in the ditch there is always something that pulls me up and out of the dark and I breath deeply and begin again and reflect on what it is that I experienced and why.I recently made important changes in my life that have brought me closer to my dreams and have been so greatly blessed. I have fresh breath, new light blessing my life daily.There is nothing greater than finding a true love to share my life with and am so grateful to God for this life I am living, many wonderful things to come.my boys are growing like weeds and so incredibly special to me. Brenden is 15 and Devin is 5 and God has such great plans for them.

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its amazing how time has just come and gone so fast, the summer has left us and fall has been amazing. I am sitting here now dealing with my change of weather health that hits me every year at this time. I have taken photos of the boys for their birthdays and then never had them developed. I have take tons of photos actually and they all sit on a disc waiting for me to get to them some day. I have been just enjoying taking some time for me. Not to forget my boys or friends, though my family says I am not myself. What is myself is me taking time for me right now and I am OK with it. Amazing when you stop being the one that keeps up, does all, tries to be everything for everyone else how the heads become side cocked with a look of wonder on the faces of those that were so spoiled by you. You step back and take a moment to do for yourself and all of a sudden the comments start rolling in. I didn't know I put a comment box out there for anyone to deposit opinions in. But they have and I am dealing with it all. I appreciate the concern but know its a matter of not being able to please the masses.

This summer was full of best friends, kids, good times. Going to the creek, four wheeling, taking day trips and having girls nights out. Brad and I did made a purchase just for us and we are reconnecting as a couple. That is so much over due. He still works too many hours, I am juggling many plates and thinking at times I am getting a good balance going, even if others don't think so, again its just amazing when you dont feed all your attention to someone how their criticism comes out. You can do whatever you want as long as its with or for them. That's fine, when my energy is ready I will do what I can for who and when I can. For now, Devin is in preschool, Brenden in middle school I am working 3 part times jobs on top of being mom, house choir queen, wife, friend amongst other titles. I deleted what was not meant to be in this part, but maybe for once I think I am in love with myself, that I have to suck up while I can. Those boys of mine, just look at them, they are amazing gifts from God, they drive me crazy most days, but they are mine, a gift and I cherish that gift and everyday I get with them.

I cant please anyone usually so *()$%^ it! like how that tirent should have been about peace and it was full of anger for a place I was in, very sad, Im editing this now since things are so different and I have grown sooooooooooooo much, I am just shaking my head as my life was changing others could not deal with what was going on , but its ok, its all ok... go with how you are lead in life, no regrets just make it the best you can and find your authentic self and someone that compliments that as you do the same for them.... Formost, Love your children love your life and remember to dance in the rain