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its amazing how time has just come and gone so fast, the summer has left us and fall has been amazing. I am sitting here now dealing with my change of weather health that hits me every year at this time. I have taken photos of the boys for their birthdays and then never had them developed. I have take tons of photos actually and they all sit on a disc waiting for me to get to them some day. I have been just enjoying taking some time for me. Not to forget my boys or friends, though my family says I am not myself. What is myself is me taking time for me right now and I am OK with it. Amazing when you stop being the one that keeps up, does all, tries to be everything for everyone else how the heads become side cocked with a look of wonder on the faces of those that were so spoiled by you. You step back and take a moment to do for yourself and all of a sudden the comments start rolling in. I didn't know I put a comment box out there for anyone to deposit opinions in. But they have and I am dealing with it all. I appreciate the concern but know its a matter of not being able to please the masses.

This summer was full of best friends, kids, good times. Going to the creek, four wheeling, taking day trips and having girls nights out. Brad and I did made a purchase just for us and we are reconnecting as a couple. That is so much over due. He still works too many hours, I am juggling many plates and thinking at times I am getting a good balance going, even if others don't think so, again its just amazing when you dont feed all your attention to someone how their criticism comes out. You can do whatever you want as long as its with or for them. That's fine, when my energy is ready I will do what I can for who and when I can. For now, Devin is in preschool, Brenden in middle school I am working 3 part times jobs on top of being mom, house choir queen, wife, friend amongst other titles. I deleted what was not meant to be in this part, but maybe for once I think I am in love with myself, that I have to suck up while I can. Those boys of mine, just look at them, they are amazing gifts from God, they drive me crazy most days, but they are mine, a gift and I cherish that gift and everyday I get with them.

I cant please anyone usually so *()$%^ it! like how that tirent should have been about peace and it was full of anger for a place I was in, very sad, Im editing this now since things are so different and I have grown sooooooooooooo much, I am just shaking my head as my life was changing others could not deal with what was going on , but its ok, its all ok... go with how you are lead in life, no regrets just make it the best you can and find your authentic self and someone that compliments that as you do the same for them.... Formost, Love your children love your life and remember to dance in the rain

OMG

how long has it been since I have posted anything, I go through these phases often, I have time or simply have nothing to say or share. Maybe a bit more of I dont want to say or share anything. If you are by my side than you know what is going on in my life and well not enough read this to be worried about posting all the boring details of this busy >womens life. I love my friends, I love my family and I am grateful to have this life and outside of that there is nothing more to say really. so now I have posted, an update none the less that I am still here, breathing, work, kids, errands, friends, family, life........... The summer has us on four wheelers, playing in the creek at Quivr River park, hanging out with friends, moving family, swimming, sunning, you know all that good stuff. Both kids will start school soon, Devin in 3 year old preschool, Sweet Jesus I see a break a head of me, 2 days a week, 3 hours a pop.. what will I do with myself. Brenden will be in the 8 grade, that just means highschool next year. SO this is it, today we are headed to drop of items to the recycled kids sale, wait for the cable guy here and at mom's, that will be interesting and actually no work this evening. Waiting for Scentsy to take off again, economy is being tough on it right now but thats ok, my house smells amazing. Well need to be moving on, Hope all of you out there are doing beautiful and are blessed each and everyday.........MUAH!!!!!!!!

Well the weekend is not yet done, but it feels over, Sunday early evening, rainy outside and i have had my monthly massage, I am one happy girl.
I had a great weekend with my hubby and friends, Friday night we went to a softball game for our friend Lonnie then here with he and his date Stacy to get ready to head out to trainwreck. Brenden and friend Brandon stayed here with Devin, Once we got him to go to bed.
We had so much fun going out, afterwards we ended up at Dennys (okay seriously that place is just nasty to me, but the food was good and it was on the clean side to my complete surprise) We were home by 2:30, even though not once did I feel it was that late. How wonderful to get out with Brad and have a little fun. (fast thought) Lonnie's new friend Stacy that was out with us, She is so sweet and so dang cute, I am hopeful that their relationship grows, I think she would be good with him. Time will tell.
Saturday Lonnie went with me out to work at my moms. No way was I going to get Brad with his back issues to go out there and to heavy lifting, besides we ended up with no one really to keep the kids for us. I was glad Lonnie had offered his muscles and time for the chore. We did need him.
The time spent with my siblings was funner than the job we had to do, but there really is no room for complaining here, the task was done with much motivation from Lonnie who was full of good spirit as were the rest of us. True story, it was bitter sweet, this is the home I grew up in, from 6 months old till the day I moved out at the age of 19. It was home, and tough it is much "different" from what I grew up in, it is still home, there are so many memories there. Playing in the back yard and the woods behind our home that held a pond we would skate on in the winter and catch snakes and frogs in the summer, to chasing lightening bugs at dusk in the common ground area. The hill in our front yard that was awesome to ride your bike down. The basement we roller skated in and hid behind the wall to see my brother and his friends hanging out on the weekends, the laundry shoot that we use to think we could squeeze in to, HA. No we never did. Sharing a room with my sister, to having my own, I think I had 3 different bedrooms in that house, The day my step dad nailed my screen in so I could hang out the window and smoke or for whistling down to Greg when he got home from work ( my buddy down the street.) How freakin HOT the 2 nd floor would get in the summer and the front door standing wide open while dad sat on the porch with his cigarettes when the summer storms passed through. On and on I can hold these memories but time to let go of this house. Time for mom to move on as well.
Saturday evening after a quick clean up we thought we were headed out again to find we would be in for the night and it was much needed. As we were all a bit pooped out. I had hung my hammock swing in the garage door way and it was nice sitting in it late last night talking to a girlfriend and watching the lightening in the sky. How relaxing, maybe a bit like my dad huh!
Today I listened to a few Christian songs, a little praising to God since shame on me I skipped church, Lonnie and I were not too motivated to dress and go. I had my massage at 2 and then hit the grocery store and well here I am, Brad is working out, Devin is napping, Brenden playing computer games I am sure and I am thinking about hitting that hammock again with my blankie.....
Hope the weekend was good to everyone and the week is even better.

here I am, wanting Devin to take a nap so I can have about 15 mintues of time to myself, then I need a nap as well, I am tired from staying up too late on facebook. Well and the phone, nothing like being on the phone and facebook with a friend, LMAO
This whole blog thing seems to once again be taking second fiddle to whatever else is going on in my life at the time. I have a book I want to have time to read. Friends I want to spend time with, more jobs I want to do.........
This weekend I get to go to my mother's house to load up a storage pod with my sibling of items she will be keeping, we hope we get the pod?!?!?!?!? I was suppose to see my one of my besties this Saturday but those plans abruptly changed, ever wonder if a friend is upset with you for no good reason, well in my mind if the friend is upset it is for no good reason, disappointment yes, but mad no. I have no clue just have this sinking feeling in the pit of my tummy and trying to work through it. For all I know they are none of the above said mention and this energy was wasted.
I am trying to take some evenings off this week, including last night but excluding Easter I have worked the past 8 days straight, though they are not 8 hours days at my paid job they are still full days of work outside of my household duties and well I think I need a couple of evenings off, even though it means I will not be bringing money in to the home, all of you that know me know this drives me insane. I am breathing though and trust God will see us through economic hard times. ALL OF US!!!!
well I think I want to get Devin down for a nap and get a move on towards my own nap.
Peace and Love, Hope and Patience

Random thoughts

Let some life changing begin, a new soul rise, a life renew itself. Growing in to your adult self can be good and not scary. Letting old habits go can be refreshing not threatening. Not understanding why and knowing how is important. Circles keep you going, just not in a direction that takes you anywhere. Learning how to truly love is a gift. Being patient is longer than the word unless I live in the word. Being what others have come to expect of me feeds me but not my soul. Changing is just as scary to me as it is to others, appreciate what others do to better their lives, it will be a great inspiration. We can all use beautiful inspiration. Letting go of past hurt, pain and habits is hard because we have been familiarized to it, like a family member, a new you is judged and stared at, sometimes even laughed at. Know you can still keep a personality even when changing habits, you can keep your personality when you change your habits, you can keep your personality when you change your habits, but personal habits change. How do I ...................thoughts............................! Meditation does not mean to take a nap. Desires are natural, your reaction to them is what makes the difference. Growing in yourself is hard, taking others along is a challenge.

Keep your Fork

There was a woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal Illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things "in order", she contacted her pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes. She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in. The woman also requested to be buried with her favorite Bible. Everything was in order and the pastor was preparing to leave when the woman suddenly remembered something very important to her. "There's one more thing," she said excitedly. "What's that?" came the pastor's reply. "This is very important," the woman continued. " I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand."
The pastor stood looking at the woman, not knowing quite what to say. "That surprises you, doesn't it?" the woman asked. "Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request," said the pastor. The woman explained. "In all my years of attending church socials and potluck dinners, I alwaysremember that when the dishes of the main course were being cleared, someone would inevitably lean over and say, 'Keep your fork'. It was my favorite part because I knew that something better was coming...like velvety chocolate cake or deep-dish apple pie. Something wonderful, and with substance! So, I just want people to see me there in that casket with a fork in my hand and I want them to wonder 'What's with the fork?'. Then I want you to tell them: "Keep your fork....the best is yet to come". The pastor's eyes welled up with tears of joy as he hugged the woman goodbye. He knew this would be one of the last times he would see her before her death. But he also knew that the woman had a better grasp of heaven than he did. She KNEW that something better was coming.
At the funeral people were walking by the woman's casket and they saw the pretty dress she was wearing and her favorite Bible and the fork placed in her right hand. Over and over, the pastor heard the question "What's with the fork?" And over and over he smiled. During his message, the pastor told the people of the conversation he had with the woman shortly before she died. He also told them about the fork and about what it symbolized to her. The pastor told the people how he could not stop thinking about the fork and told them that they probably would not be able to stop thinking about it either. He was right. So the next time you reach down for your fork, let it remind you oh so gently, that the best is yet to come

Hebrews 4:16, "Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."

a new friend

well I have been meaning to type about my new friend, Lonnie.
Brad and Lonnie were the best of friends in highschool, I have heard many stories, funny how our spouses have a life before us. After all this time of Brad and I being together its even funnier to hear stories about his past. In my eyes our lives began when we met one another and the rest of it is from a life lived so many years ago. I like to hear about his times in his past and how he was, most of it not too far off from the person Brad is today, you can see through some of the chaos that he was still that person I love today under all that teenage "stuff" we all experience.
I met Lonnie when Brad and I were planning our wedding and for a short period of time after we wed. Then as fast as we welcomed Lonnie in to our lives he was out of our lives.
Recently we found him on the infamous Facebook. I decided to type him a Hello message and see if he would accept our online friendship. He did of course and it was the start of restoring a friendship with Brad from long ago and new friendship for myself. Those of you that know me know how much I cherish good friendships. I have had great conversations with Lonnie and have enjoyed getting to know this person that Brad spoke of so often.
I have also learned that through a series of events Lonnie's life as changed dramatically and he is on a path of healing. Brad and I hope we can be a part of that healing with him. To see him turn his life into what he wants it to be, and more so for what God intends it to be.
He is an amazing person with so much to offer this world. Yesterday evening while I was working Lonnie spent time with Brad. I have to add because you can all possibly relate to the thoughts Brad has had of "how boring my life is, I work and hang with my family, why would this guy want to hang with me?"
I have told him that he is a great person that many want to hang out with.
These are my thoughts, right now he and Lonnie are going through the ritual of what have you been doing and remember when stories.
A renewed friendship has to go through all of those steps so that a "new" friendship can emerge and develop. It needs time to catch up to the lives we all live today.
Friday night Lonnie came by and arrived a few moments before Brad did and we were inside talking, Brad came in and he lit up, a smile on his face that was so wonderful for me to see.
Brad has talked so much these last few weeks on how he feels like he is losing who he is to the seriousness of the world around him. He is an amazing man with so much compassion for what goes on around him. I try to help him by reminding him of the great person he is, the gifts God has given him and what direction he is taking his work in. God will reward him and guide him and that he is still Brad, the man I love and respect with that amazing sense of humor fully intact.
As much as I think we can support his new/old friend I think Brad will get that support back and in time that friendship will move past the old times and new memories will develop.
Last night Lonnie mentioned he was going to church in the morning and I was proud to hear him say this but didn't think anything past that. This morning I woke with the thought that I too wanted to attend church and that I should call him. I felt moved to call him, knowing Brad would be ok with it, I made the call. I am glad I did. I met Lonnie at a church he wanted to try and he was going alone and I know all too well that feeling of attending on your own, and for a first timer that is even harder. So I met him and we went. The service was good, but it was not my church it was no "Church on the rock". I love my church and every once in a while it is on the blah side, but more times than not I am so moved when I am there. I walk out feeling a breath of fresh air, renewed. Today I felt good that I went, good that I had a friend to go with, we even had matching outfits on which we both laughed about. I have told him he is my male Robbie. So you know now that I am really enjoying my friendship with him, and due to him being a male it is easier that he is Brad's friend and that he trusts him. This friendship would go no where if that was not the case. I am the girl that has the attitude that no one compares to my daddy or my husband so I am totally comfortable with male friendships.
Point is that today , this morning was a wonderful gift and I felt I was doing a great thing for my new friend and for myself. He felt the same as I about this church and asked on the way out " so your church next week". Well I am so excited to share COTR with him and hope now that it is an amazing service that will bless him and he will want to return again with me. It will be nice to sit next a companion in Christ and receive God.
Today was about worshiping, experiencing, praising God. Reminding us its ok to praise God in how you feel and see fit, there are no rules. God just wants to hear our voices, no matter what we think we sound like, It is sweetness to his ears. If we want to pray to him, its not how we say it or what we say. Its that we believe in his ability to hear us through voice or thought and we are doing so. We can praise him in many ways and should always remember to do so. He gave his son for us and he loves us more than we can ever comprehend. Some things I wrote down in church today, which my notes were not as full as when I attend COTR but all the same I took some things away with me. In my eyes that is the point, to get something from church that will make you think, motivate you in one way or another, one song was moving to me, it was up beat and made me want to praise.
my notes read as follows
Worship lifts our hearts from worldly problems
love your Lord with all your heart and soul
Dont worship the song , band or pastor. Let the song lead you to worship God
it is not something to us or for us but by us
we are the performers and God is the audience
celebration of praise, praise in the manner that is fitting to you, hands lifted, voices lifted, eyes lifted whatever it may be, it should be to yours.
and the band sure is sneaky!, oh wait that was a note to Lonnie, HA
we were praying and it was all of 30 or so seconds, we opened our eyes and the band was in place, not a sound had been made while they moved back in to position.
:) it just hit me as "boy they are sneaky" Lonnie wondered how deep in prayer we had been :)
So that is my new friend and a wonderful friend that I pray for and have such hope for in his future, his life and as a part of my family's life. God blesses us with situations and people for a reason, embrace it and pray about it and know that God is behind everything.
Brad says maybe he will go next time, I sure hope so!

I will do it later mom

What is it with this boy of mine. He just wants love, and not to be questioned, pushed, motivated, nothing else from me. He is driving me nuts. Brenden you need to get that stuff together, "I gotta go mom I will do it later" But later I wont be able to watch and control it!!! there is the honesty in my mothering skills. But there is So much he has going on this week in school, the week before spring break and he just shuts down, more headaches for him, pain in the ass for me. He has tests that he just wants to breeze through, he is not prepared for, spelling test that he has not studied for. Thespelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">freakin test is tomorrow along with one or two other tests.>GRRRRRRRRRRR<, will I survive this child and think I did enough or let go of the blame if . Nope nothing will be wrong, he will be fine. I just stop myself and say, this is who he is and he has chosen. One day he may go back and and say "Oh I could have listened to my mom and done more with what I was given, but look, I turned out just fine" this he may be saying to his therapist while trying to over come all the lectures and bitching!!!!!!!!!!!!! I pray that my son is moving down>life's path that God intendeds for him, Heavenly Father bless him as you have done so already in his life. You breathed life in to him and gave him life to corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">fulfill a purpose and I know that purpose is not to drive his momma id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">loony! I thank you for him and all his wonderful ways. id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Stubbornness, sensitivity, humor, ego, determination (though it is not being put to use in the areas that I want it to be used in). I know you love him and he is learning about you. Let him continue to grow in your image. Devin, we will talk about later!!!!!!!!!!!

Luck of the Irish

Surely the term "The luck of the Irish" originated from the fact that despite hundreds of years of prosecutuion by the British, land grabs by the British, occupation by the British, the very fact that Ireland still exists is kind of "Luck" in itself.

Irish people have come through such overwhelming adversity and have come out on top and kicking! It must be luck... or true perseverance.

Murphy's Law:
Nothing is as easy as it looks.
Everything takes longer than you expect.
And if anything can go wrong,
It will at the worst possible moment.


May you have:
A world of wishes at your command
God and his angels close at hand
Friends and family their love impart,
And Irish blessings in you heart.


May you always have
Walls for the winds,
A roof for the rain,
Tea beside the fire,
Laughter to cheer you,
Those you love near you,
And all your heart might desire!
Irish Blessing


Coslorga Footprints
Some people come into our lives and quickly go...
Some people stay awhile...
And leave footprints on our hearts...
And we are never, ever the same
As you slide down the banister of life, May the splinters never point in the wrong direction! Irish Blessing

Welcome Spring

there is nothing like welcoming a beautiful spring day, the birds outside chirping, flowers budding on trees, the Easter Lillies ready to stretch open and welcome the warmth of the sun.

and some asshole digging up my mulch

Deep Thoughts

we are all in this energy flow together, what distinguishes us from one another?
the differences is your perspective.

Time of your life

was sitting here messing with my music for this site and wish I could add music to facebook, whats up with that, I need to be entertained a bit more there, I would maybe hang out longer. Anyways, I got to a song that I played for a friend that passed away, over a year ago now. WOW to think of those friends that I have lost, as I approach the age of when their lives ended it is just amazing to me to think that is all they got, so fast. But God knows when it is right to come home so its so hard to truly question why? So I was at Danielle's today and we were doing hair and "When I get were I'm going" came on, that was one of the songs I used in the DVD memorial I made for Joe's (her brother in law) memorial service. It is such an honor for me to do that for others, memorials are just as important to me as doing one for an anniversary, birthday or simply sharing photos with my dad. I add music and slide show of photos set to music. I LOVE IT. But I heard this song and none of us said a world but I know we were all thinking it. Then tonight the song "Time of your life" played and I was like ok Joe, we are thinking of you and you are dearly missed.
I never got to make a dvd for my friend Cindy when she passed, as I was not yet making them period, but now I would have loved to have made one. She too was special.. But actually someone had one, it was hard to watch. Many of us that were close to her went through that time with her and we loved her so much. But I ended up writing a poem and getting bracelets for a dear friend of hers that she hoped I would be in contact with, which never came to pass.
So anyway thats what I am doing right now, thinking of my dear friends that have stepped into the next phase of their souls journey, The beauty, joy and most of all peace.
Words to the songs that leave a lasting message about those that have passed on
My picks


I can only imagine
when I get where Im goin
Time of your life

oh the things kids can say

Brad came in dressed and I said where are we going, or you going? His brother is coming over with Gavin to play as I am here in a robe and wet hair I guess I better go get myself prepared. Well Devin I can hear behind me and thinking nothing of it as he opens the door goes outside and rings the door bell. He does this often.
But Brad says "Devin get your naked ass in here" Well he is butt ass nakie. So Devin says " I Fart, I go out and fart" The word fart and Brad usually end up in laughter, he reverts to a child when you say that word, funny stuff. Devin seems to have picked it up somewhere he likes to talk about it from time to time. If you are in going potty he will walk up and stand there "You fart?" No Devin I didnt, did you? "No I not fart"
A bit more info than needs to be shared, but you cant help but to love some of the things that come from these kids mouths.
Brenden told me the other day as Brad was spouting off funny one liners, our Mike Brady impressions that we love to make up one liners too, anyway Brenden says " When you are feeling down, Climb a tree" OMG he has his dads humor, that to me is a blessing.

I dont wanna grow up , I'm a toys r us kid

Well Robbie you and I will talk on this for hours I am sure. But here is my thing as I say to Brad, HOW do you stop drinking? (willpower and determination)
I mean I have before and I don't have a problem with not drinking. I then would make less of a fool of myself and maybe have a better chance at health. Two weeks ago I said no more drinking.(I have drank 3 times since, can you say LOSER!)
I can still be fun! The alcohol just exaggerates my silliness. Yea I know that is what it does for most. It exaggerates how much of a jerk, crab, funny, sad a person is. I think for me, I just get more extroverted, louder. I show off more, which is annoying to me. These days I don't need more in my life. I had a full weekend of drinking activities for which I am not proud of. It is a bit of a hypocritical thing of me to drink, when I tell my son how much we need to take care of ourselves and be aware of our bodies and how they speak to us and I just go ignoring my own damn good advice once again. Why I rebel so much is just lost on me at times.
Brad and I got to go out last night to see a friend of his from the past, well it was a reunion and Brad just really wanted to go to see him. I think he had fun seeing some others too. I had my friend and her husband meet up so I could let Brad do his own thing and not feel strange with me sitting there watching him. That would suck. Besides I pick on Brad a bit and I hate that and didnt want to do any of that with his peeps.
Night ended early, but later than we planned and we headed to our house with two friends of his and played pool, the ride home I was not pleased with myself for drinking at all. Knowing I was not drunk but had been sitting in a bar, ordering up drinks. Atleast this go around I got water and food too. So at home I didnt drink and was fine, just tired and boy am I the fun one when I am tired. LOL YAWN!!!!
Well we played pool and had snacks and it was the environment that I like to be in, at home where I am not spending money, relaxed, we can talk, hear, goof with one another. So I DUNNO! I told Brad I need to follow through with all theses ideas and wants I have for myself and my life and stop being such a fool. Its time to grow up and get a clue. My thoughts are to be an inspiration to someone else, to live life to the fullest with in reason. To know I can be just as fun without drinking, and bars are so overrated, but going out to eat with friends and having fun is a must.
I need to plan more of those, how nice to get out and how easy to have Brenden watch Devin for a couple of hours so we can do the dinner thing. We spent all this time building our basement and it should be used for entertaining rather than going out to the bar and having $4 beers. That is just ridiculous.
SOOOOO my thoughts are to plan a once a month dinner outing with a friend, or couples or just the guys, just the ladies. We all need to get out and socialize. Have some fun without it getting anyone in to trouble. We are all older and need to remember that. Keep our shit in line. As I am out there being a fool thinking, Man I am older than most of those cute things that have a right to be out drunk and acting like fools. Its in their age to do that, I am already done that. I want to be a grown up now. DID I REALLY JUST SAY THAT!!!!!!

Todays Thought

It is of great value for you to give your conscious attention to what you specifically want, otherwise you can be swept up by the influence of that which surrounds you. You are bombarded by the stimulation of thought. And so, unless you are setting forth the thought that is important to you, you can be stimulated by another's thought that may or may not be important to you.

Support your own thoughts and wants, rather than false ideas from someone else, Know what you want.

morning funny

This child simply cracks me up, I am goofing this morning on the computer, whats new, and I so need to get out of here and find a black table cloth for my Scentsy show tonight. Oh in due time my dear friends, I will be on the road running wild and free. But for now I am laughing at Heavy D, he got out his puff balls/pom poms, you know those fluffy crafty ball things. might I mention HE LOVES TO COOK, so he comes in grabs bowls and spoons, leaves, comes back for bags and paper bags, soon he is back for his muffin tins only to return AGAIN for muffin cups. Soon he is back for his completed project, pom poms in cups in the muffin tin to the oven ,he needs to cook. OF COURSE I took photos, he is now trying to take them in and out of a cold over with his whoobie that acts as his oven mit. I tried to get up to get something by the stove, he said, "SIT SIT, I COOKING"
LOVE THIS CHILD, of course as I am typing this he got out some yankee tarts and said mmmmmmmmmmmm, smell this one! oh yea I still have yankee, love that company too!!!!!

stop being in the middle

I have to stop being in the middle of everyones stuff, feelings, fights, issues, decisions. I want to help and be supportive, it seems that most of the time that ends up taking more from and out of me than the person it is about.
So I will work on still caring and having compation but knowing that I may not actually be able to change the world, or atleast some people. Its ok to have my friends as my family to love and support who will do the same for me.
I respect my family and love them deeply, but fixing them is not my "job".
I can listen and pray for them, let God do the fixin here.

Where have I been

I am home from work and it was a busy night, I hate when I get that busy. I feel like I rush through all that I have to do, then people come back from the bathroom, is this side a little bit longer, well probably, sit back down. I don't know why it would be I mean I am only squeezing my butt between the counter and this chair in less than conducive light to give you a beautiful haircut. Are my brows even see this little hair here, well sure let me tweeze it, I didn't see that when you were laying your head back in the shadows of this corner. The one thing I hate about doing hair outside of a salon, being rushed and not having the proper setting to do the best job I know I am capable of doing. I have to remind myself to slow down and take the time that each person deserves. But I throw in a freebie and they forgive me, well enough that they call me back for more. Most people I have been doing for years, so I must be doing something they like, and if they leave they do end up coming back at one point or another. So forgive me to all the clients that had a longer side, a missed section in the foiling or a brow that was not as thin as the other.
Tomorrow I have my first "REAL" Scentsy show with my girlfriend Becky next door(the first show I turned in from outside orders I got myself, it was a decent order and it gave me the chance to sit with Robbie and put them in the computer and do that whole process or order, receive and deliver), late this afternoon it took me some time and a babysitting favor from Brenden to get my paper work and supplies ready for it. Devin did not nap today so I was bumming a little bit, well until my prince Brenden saved me.
I had a basket of testers out across the street that I had to get back so my clients tonight could play, they liked a few and I am sure will order in the future, why is it I feel odd to take a second thing for others to hand over their money to me for? They are receiving a service or products from me and its all at a wonderful price, but I feel at times like I am pan handling, LOL at myself.
Soooo tomorrow I have another park play date with my sister in law, my beautiful mother in law needs her hairs did, I need to get a hold of her. I need to hit a store for a rotisserie chicken to use the meat for the buffalo wing dip that Becky asked me to bring to the party. Is that odd, I am working it and bringing a dish. Well I can say that Becky would do it for me so I am truly happy to do it, besides getting to eat it, YUM! I also prefer to buy a cooked chicken and strip it of its meat rather than buy chicken from a can, just doesn't sit well with me in thought. I will eat it like that and its fine, but I am funny about food and feel better knowing its a fresh kill, HA, I mean fresh cooked chicken. Oh and I need to get those testers back to the other neighbor for her gathering she is having with family and friends tomorrow night.
Saturday I am going to Moms to work for a bit and drop postage and postcards to one of my besties Danielle for her upcoming Scentsy party. Then Sunday I am having a Launch party for my new career with Scentsy, a nice way to introduce the product to those I have yet to share all these wonderful scents with. I am so in love with this stuff and love to see peoples reactions to the different scents. Amazing how different we all feel about smells.
Devin and I both have allergies issues right now thanks to this Missouri weather. Brad has it slightly and Brenden started complaining this evening of a scratchy throat. I am going to try Claritin D tomorrow, the regular is just not doing it for us. I really need to get the acupuncture to clear my sensitivity to it all. Whatever it all is that attacks my sinus'.
Well I have been typing long enough, I am pooped from a long day and need to get some rest. I hope to wake early to finish reading "The Shack" you were right Robbie, what a wonderful book. I was doing well reading it, then got busy and have not been able to pick it up in a day and a half. I will make it a point to some how some way finish it tomorrow.
Hope all is well and everyone has a beautiful, blessed Friday.
Peace

Parents often think that they are here to guide the little ones. When - in reality - the little ones come forth with clarity to guide you.

something I read

Those that are succeeding and are thrilled and joyful in the unfolding will often tell you, "I've dreamed this since I was little. I imagined it, I pretended it, I used to practice with the hairbrush pretending it was a microphone." Purity is the alignment of energy. Doesn't matter what anybody else thinks about anything. It only matters what you think about it.

Whittle train stop

A trip to Whittle Train Station today proved to be great fun, we went with cousins Gavin, Peyton and Addison and their friends Sean and Peter.
We do plan to return with Daddy and BB, a train went by at the end of our visit sending out us with a smile

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pics of whats been going on

Alex and Sophia, I was at Robbies on Sunday helping a friend work with her photography equipment, she did such a good job, these two were so cute I had to grab my camera and get my own photograph of them, I am sure Cindy's will be must better since she was set up for the shot Here I am putting Brad and Devin to work on Scentsy, they were so wonderful to help me unload my kit, as you see there are no child labor laws in my house


Devin and his Parents as Teacher Educator playing last week with some corn starch and water, who knew how much fun could be had by this, It was quite cool....

3 ring Circus

this is my new title, I am going to balance it all. The one thing, okay, one of the things I feel I am not the best I am going to take on.
3 jobs, 3 kids, well really come on. 3 Besties. Seems I could find 3's in anything to be honest witchya.
Well so it keeps me from being on here lately. Thats not all bad.
yesterday I went to Robbies to get some work done. Set up in her office, we were back to back and i have to tell you it was a cool feeling. Feeling like we had soemthing to work on together. Then our kids would come through. I thought I am getting less done here than at home, and getting frustrated with Devin who is content for short periods of time, Even with his friends there to play, still it was a feeling I had during that time of how I was having more fun there in that moment than at home alone being frustrated.
I thrive off of energy and Robbie gives me good energy.
So I was working on my launch letter, which I did end completeing, and got them mailed out attached to a catalog. Really hoping to make an honest go at this Scentsy. I got my shows order yesterday from Robbie and oh I am so in love, one smell after another takes me to a blissful place, I got good feedback from those that came and ordered as well.
Okay I hear Devin, Even though I have been up since 5 with one short 30 minute catch up nap, I am not ready for him to rise just yet. I was hoping to catch up on all my blogging. Maybe later, so much to share in photos and stories....
Much Love till then
Um, Devin just came out with his typical 10 woobies and two binkies saying " I go to Siwer's house" even he loves to hang at Robbies!

smellicious

Every bit of it is about economics. Every bit of it, without exception. Everything about religion is about economics. Everything about politics is about economics. And everything about economics is personal satisfaction. Everyone is personally motivated to do the best that they can possibly do for themselves

So Monday I became a sales rep under Miss Robbie for Scentsy candles, though they are not candles, they are warmers to fill your home with amazing scents. I am all about smells and love this product, so why not sell something I love. Besides the economics part of it. We can all use a bit more cash flow.
SO I am going for it. I thought the feed back from my excited email would be so phenomenal, everyone wanting to book a party. BLAH, nothing! My sister will after taxes, I totally get that. So I have one future booking. I know I will have more, but I was so high from my sign up, then I went to do hair work and talked to my clients about it. I am still excited, I realllllly do love this product...
I told Brad, he said "what are you giving up to do this?" He thinks I do too much as it is. Well I am for the moment not doing photography so that is a bit of a resting point. I don't have time to study the photography as I need. I got a wonderful flash for Christmas, I don't even know how to use it. My brain is moosh and the thought of studying anything just makes me tired. I read all sorts of things, things of inspiration, blogs, emails, fast notes. But to STUDY, OMG.............
So I figure since I want to make more money, But do enough with hair, and the cost to get all the photography equipment I need and to find time and energy to learn it all. It will have to wait a little bit longer. I think to skip down this avenue and see what awaits me is an exciting idea. You never know what is intended for yourself unless you try.
so my site is www.scentsy.com/smellicious stop in and check out the amazing scents we have to offer, with over 80 I am sure something will temp you. It did me and now I am selling it.....

60's again

so the weather is suppose to be wonderful again today with rain invading us this evening. The rain is needed to wash away the remains of the snow and salt, okay no snow but some dirty streets that could use a shinning.
I have a filthy truck, whats new. But I have an urge NOT to wash it due to the rain that we are suppose to have. It makes it really hard when it has been so nice out and well you want things fresh and clean for the fresh weather.
So Devin and I are hanging out whilst I goof on this here computer for a bit, doing some laundry from time to time. He is content so why rock the boat ya know. I plan to take him to the park, since we can't waste this day totally. Tomorrow they are calling for even nicer weather, with rain yet again come evening. I will take every bit of it. To be honest Spring weather is my favorite next to Fall. I like the change of seasons, but not the allergies that come with it. Ok Devin is in something so I best be on my way, had not typed in some time so I felt I should leave something to scrath and sniff.
Oh the scentsy party I had was wonderful. I wish you all could have been there, Brad was to take Devin out, but I was not about to make him leave when he was enjoying smelling all those wonderful scents, so he hung out with the girls nad picked out some scents. Great job Robbie.


UPDATE, I just walked outside, we are headed out to park and cousin play, well my truck is nice and CLEAN, yea Big Daddy, momma owes you one!!!!

Have a wonderful day at school

I am sitting here thinking of what Brenden said before he headed off to his first FULL day of school."have a good first full day back Brenden", "have a good day not being a teacher mom"
(he is so excited to be going back, to get his friends back and his routine back. I think he thought home would be different and well as much as it was different, homeschooling is not easy)
So his comment is sticking with me as well as my response. "Brenden I will always be a teacher even if you are not being homeschooled"
For after he left Devin wanted his school work out and we began to work.



That was not what I meant when I made the statement but I guess it goes along with it. We have so much we want to teach our children everyday, I think I may teach and guide too much at times. Allowing Brenden to figure more out I am thinking would be a real gift to his adult that is to come.
Last night I handed him our zoo summer camp magazine and he brought a really cool class to us. For one day ( sorry 2 1/2 hours) $145 he works one on one with the lion seal trainer, he preps food works with the seals and is even part of one of the shows and is given lunch and a shirt. Well Brad and I decided at that moment, WHY NOT, he doesn't do sports, parents are paying out the ass for so many activities and Brenden only does guitar with his wonderful uncle who doesn't even charge us. We would soooooooooo pay for that experience. Well he found two others, still under $50 and I was like whatever you want to do Brenden you go for it, we will pay for it. I said now I need to know so I can call tomorrow, I mean space is limited, BIG TIME. Well with that he was getting nervous. Brenden likes time, taking it. I on the other hand make fast decisions.
My thought is its limited you want it you better go for it and get it while you can.
So do I call today and book his seal trainer adventure, or do I let him decide later even though it may be too late to book it, IF he decides he wants to do it.
Obviously this is all in the summer months none of it will interfere with school, but like that would bother me if it did. What better way to learn than to get your hands in it.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, what to do! Send some advice on what you would do people

my morning funny with Devin
He walks out with my glass of water like he does most mornings. Every night I take a glass of ice water to bed, and usually there is almost a full cup the next morning, its a good habit for me since I am to drink so much of it.
well I typically wont dump the water down the drain. I my plants with it, why waste it right! so obviously my little Devin has been watching me do this. He will come out every so often with my cup of water and say "water tree" and sure enough he goes over and dumps the water in the soil, I would almost swear my ficus sighs a "thank you".


So you always teach your children, intentional or unintentional. Your words and your actions are not lost on them and their little souls. They soak it all up even when You think they are not paying attention. As Eileen (Brad's mom) said one day after Brenden had been staying over at her house "Brenden listens to everything you say, all that you have taught him he is using, his manners, his habits. what you say is not lost on him". It really helped me to know what I was doing, okay the good stuff, was sticking with Brenden and he was taking it out in to the world with him.
Devin is following in his footsteps.

Thanks to my love bug

I am sitting in my car while Devin is sleeping, and Brenden is inside going over Math homework with his new math tutor and friend Sophia. My lovely Robbie brought out her lap top so I could have something to do. Is she the BEST or what!!!!!
God can bless us in the funniest way, its amazing.
Quick wonderful story for ya....
Brenden and I had a great God talk before we came over here and I read the first part of Genisis to him, you know....how God created the Earth. He is doing Romans for homeschool social studies and we are finishing up the chapter. His school is doing Greece right now and he has already done that chapter at home. They requested I turn in a report card for him , he is returning full time this Wednesday. I told him lets finish up Romans, he had already read it and done the vocabulary and worksheets, we just had to make a study guide and test. When studying the Romans it also introduces of all wonderful things the start of Christianity. It sparked questions from him today, HALLALUAH! I dont push church on my family, silly I know, but I took them as little ones and I talk to them about it often, but they have to as I feel all have to come to God on their own two feet (or knees) and those should be foot prints, not drag marks in the sand.
So his questions today were wonderful and he is interested in going to church again, I need to get him a good teen bible that is easy to read and understand, so I need some feed back here of anyone that can send me a link, suggestion, referral, help me out kids.
He has bibles but not age appropriate ones, and I dont want to just send him to a teen class, I want him to READ the bible, do a bible study as well as participate in a youth group.
okay, well that is all I got for this moment and hey Robbie, "I LOVE YOU GIRLFRIEND"
thanks
smoochie smoochie

Hi Centralia!

Hope you are having a great morning, Who is this?

Good Marnin kids

Pardon alllll the photos, I had more so you are lucky this is all I uploaded, I have an addiction, I think we allllllllllllll know this.....


well this weekend was full and fast.
Friday was going to be kick back and relax, and it was, Brad was late getting home from work, he works tooooo much. We had our usual Friday pizza night. The kids and I had gone to blockbuster and I bought 2 used dvd's, which is funny since we rarely have time to watch a movie, especially if Devin is up and well Devin is always up and when he goes down so does Brad. Well we got to watch one for those movies, "Stepbrothers" and we laaaaaaaughed, we needed too!
My sista called towards the end of the movie they were going out for a bit down the street so I called her back when the movie was done, she was not having fun so i said pick me up and we will make fun, and boy did we, She had a few drinks (she RARELY drinks) and there was an 80's cover band, so we sang every song.
Saturday morning I hit the grocery store to get a roast for dinner and had Brad invite his momma, Brenden ended up puking while I was out, we think too much stress about school and what to do. Then Laura Ken Mike and I had to go to our mom's to do some moving work, that was a 5 hour day I guess. Back home for dinner, yummy and a visit with Eileen which is always wonderful. I brought home some amazing photographs of my mother, I will blog that story later, and a hutch that was hers when she was little and all of us kids played with, she never handed it down to anyone, so we finally took it before it was sent of to a lumber yard, it needs to be stripped of lead paint, my dad says we can help me this spring to do it. Devin is just so excited over it, I will post photos. Laura and I use to play stage coach on it, it was our kitchen set, our office, our school, our bus. You name it we used it for it I am sure.
Sunday I woke and decided I want to start doing family field trips, we dont take weekend camping trips and we run in different directions, and how Brenden has been feeling lately, more reason to do so.
We went to the Magic House and had so much fun, then to Mcdonalds for lunch and play, drove around looking at trucks for Brad, he soooooooooooooo has to get a newer one, you cant drive a crap looking truck while driving around introducing yourself as a body shop manager, just like I cant have a root line and sell hair color.
So the weekend was full, we are planning to go next weekend to a new pizza place in town and maybe a trip to my friends firehouse, I need to email him on that one.
Today, well I have no clue, thought I should get some photos in order to burn for my Dad, he likes when I send him movie dvd's slide shows of the Fam and well I am a bit overdue, I should see if Brads dad would like one too, hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Hope all is well and that your weekends were blessed.
Toodles

the kiddy hutch I grew up playing with
skittle love
tight fit for Big Daddy!!
tea time with mom!
The rest of the Magic house photos now!




PS totally forgot to tell ya, HA, we found this costume and well Brenden and I are all about dress up so I took it for home/Halloween closet and of course Brenden and I had to try it on, check it out, so much fun, Brad and Eileen were quite amused with us as always, we are dorks no need to say it.......

a buckin horse, I was almost thrown off!

Back in the school saddle again, well almost!

so Brenden has announced he is ready to go back to school with bitter sweet tears.
He is torn, but he is missing his social life as simple as it may be.
He feels he is missing so much by not being in school and the activities that THAT includes.
I feel for him, and am not totally sure, yet I will honor and respect his decision and know that it will be for the best. I have not given him my all with the homeschool, mostly because I dont have a ton to give.
He wanted this experience and I gave it to him and that is what was important. For him to feel both sides of the street.
He says he will miss being around us, why I am not sure since we fight toddler battles and whatnot. But Brenden is an emotional being and loves to be close to us.
I have told him he still has that after school and that it is important to be a part of his school environment, I am not looking forward to the peer pressure situations that will arise in the future. I will continue to work on encouraging him to be a strong young man who values his life and taking care of himself, his mind and his body.
So we are praying and hoping that this transition will be good and he will walk in to school, his first full day back with a renewed confidence in himself and how wonderfully intelligent he is. Though we are still waiting on those scores, LOL....
will keep you posted I am sure


Today we went to visit with Robbie along with her wonderful daughter Sophia. Sophia nad Brenden did some tutoring in order to bring him up to speed with what his Math class is doing , Ratios, algebra, some things that were lost on me, its been too long since I have had to figure that sort of math out. I think I have noddles in my head these days, so much I dont even try to get out my photography studies so I can advance my career, fearing I will not be able to retain it AT ALL. Then the fact that Devin has to be watched since he is in to anything and everything ALL the time.
Things in this life will fall in to place as God intends it to and I will trust that.
While I wait I will have my margaritas from time to time, Blog when I need to share something, visit with Devin and I's friends and see that Brenden has all the love and support his little heart needs, make sure Bid Daddy eats at least one meal a day and laughs on the weekends, I have not been so good that the later here lately, But I will work harder.

SNOWY Day

well this will be it for today, I am waiting for a client now, then we will cook dinner, then more clients tonight. I am sitting her laughing at Devin who will not let me start Shrek in 3D because he wants to dance to the presong, over and over, he is just bouncing in place, if I could capture it on photo I would but it would not be the same. Silly kid he is.
While he was sleeping today I started preparing veggies for salsa. I miss my salsa.
I opened a jar of Hacienda salsa the other day and it sucked, then I tried again last night thinking it was just the day, NOPE, it sucked. Devin wanted to try it too, stating to him it was hot, I hardly put any on a chip for him, well within seconds I thought he would puke, crying his head off choking, we got a popsicle for the sting, poor kid. I knew then that I had to go out in the snow today (darn, LOL, I love the snow) and get veggies to make our salsa.
I started the pit which took longer to heat due to the cold and well Devin woke in time to grill, so we shoveled and grilled and then came in for cookies and salsa making, yummmmmmmmy good stuff.
ok, my client is here so I am outty, enjoy some photos.